The rose that no longer blooms in the garden,
blooms inside her whole body, among the veins
and organs and the skeleton.
-- Linda Gregg
This first session of Deep Dives was a brief introduction into Kundalini. The word Kundalini itself comes with a lot of beauty and a lot of baggage. I think its useful to have some other ways of describing this process in order to give depth and fullness to our understanding.
Creative life force. She who rises. She who animates. Shakti Ma. The Divine Mother of the universe. Birther of existence. The dancing face of emptiness. The dazzle upon the waters of the Unknown dark. Uncaused, Original Lovingness at the heart of matter. The Call to incarnate. Involution. Holy Fire made conscious. Up and out, Down and in. Let there BE Light. Genesis. Big bang. Shiva/Shakti unite. Mystical Union. Homecoming.
The word is derived from a Sanskrit term meaning coil. Think of a compressed spring containing the energy of the Big Bang sitting at the base of the spine. It is the creative power from which prana, chi, lom , breath, growth, evolution etc. springs. She pours forth in love as the energetic universe, the body of existence, consciousness.
Kundalini is not so much a goal or something to achieve. It is an inward journey activated by the soul’s divine plan and intelligence. It is the process of a "ground level change of identity". A radical shift in consciousness and orientation.
A process of deconstruction. A burning away of the conditioned, separate self. Which then is reflected in the body (The Body). The process catalyzes a metamorphosis of the physicality. A response to the realization of the levels of consciousness of Oneness, Wholeness, Isness. The physicality must be rewired. Each person's experience of the process will be blessedly unique. These are but a few of the variety of phenomena that can occur : tremoring/shaking, involuntary postures and movements, heightened and/or changed senses, heightened energy, rushes of heat or cold, rushes of bliss or terror, tingling in the spine , heart expansion with rapid heart rate/arrhythmia/irregularity, experience of fire in the body, fear of death or insanity, intermittent pain, headaches, visual disturbance, vertigo and balance difficulties, great shifts in eating and sleeping, emotional and psychological rearrangements, nervous system phenomena (seizures, numbness, hyperactivity, exhaustion, burning), a sense of vastness within the nerves and spine, extrasensory experience, spontaneous healings, unitive experiences.
Cautions are real. Without context this rewiring can be terrifying. A skillful guide or teacher is of immense help. It is very useful to remember that all phenomena come to pass. And everything is a phase. Assuming a gentle attitude of trust and cooperation/collaboration.
It is at once a unification and a deconstruction. Terrifying and blissful. The conditioned, divided, territory of me is deconstructed so that there are no edges, boundaries, divisions. Twoness becomes oneness. Like a mother and child.
At once, Fullness is emptiness. Emptiness is fullness. Form is formlessness. Formlessness is form. Wholeness is unique expression. And unique expression is Whole.
The I Ching calls it clinging, fire:
"Fire has no definite form,"
"but clings to the burning object
and thus is bright.”