Session Replays

February 20, 2021

The replay is divided into three sections:

  • Jen's talk

  • Group discussion

  • Guided meditation/Energy Attunement

February 20, 2021 - Audio

Because the file is so long you may get a warning, it is fine to click play!

DeepDive1.m4a


The rose that no longer blooms in the garden,

blooms inside her whole body, among the veins

and organs and the skeleton.

-- Linda Gregg

This first session of Deep Dives was a brief introduction into Kundalini. The word Kundalini itself comes with a lot of beauty and a lot of baggage. I think its useful to have some other ways of describing this process in order to give depth and fullness to our understanding.

Creative life force. She who rises. She who animates. Shakti Ma. The Divine Mother of the universe. Birther of existence. The dancing face of emptiness. The dazzle upon the waters of the Unknown dark. Uncaused, Original Lovingness at the heart of matter. The Call to incarnate. Involution. Holy Fire made conscious. Up and out, Down and in. Let there BE Light. Genesis. Big bang. Shiva/Shakti unite. Mystical Union. Homecoming.


The word is derived from a Sanskrit term meaning coil. Think of a compressed spring containing the energy of the Big Bang sitting at the base of the spine. It is the creative power from which prana, chi, lom , breath, growth, evolution etc. springs. She pours forth in love as the energetic universe, the body of existence, consciousness.


Kundalini is not so much a goal or something to achieve. It is an inward journey activated by the soul’s divine plan and intelligence. It is the process of a "ground level change of identity". A radical shift in consciousness and orientation.


A process of deconstruction. A burning away of the conditioned, separate self. Which then is reflected in the body (The Body). The process catalyzes a metamorphosis of the physicality. A response to the realization of the levels of consciousness of Oneness, Wholeness, Isness. The physicality must be rewired. Each person's experience of the process will be blessedly unique. These are but a few of the variety of phenomena that can occur : tremoring/shaking, involuntary postures and movements, heightened and/or changed senses, heightened energy, rushes of heat or cold, rushes of bliss or terror, tingling in the spine , heart expansion with rapid heart rate/arrhythmia/irregularity, experience of fire in the body, fear of death or insanity, intermittent pain, headaches, visual disturbance, vertigo and balance difficulties, great shifts in eating and sleeping, emotional and psychological rearrangements, nervous system phenomena (seizures, numbness, hyperactivity, exhaustion, burning), a sense of vastness within the nerves and spine, extrasensory experience, spontaneous healings, unitive experiences.


Cautions are real. Without context this rewiring can be terrifying. A skillful guide or teacher is of immense help. It is very useful to remember that all phenomena come to pass. And everything is a phase. Assuming a gentle attitude of trust and cooperation/collaboration.


It is at once a unification and a deconstruction. Terrifying and blissful. The conditioned, divided, territory of me is deconstructed so that there are no edges, boundaries, divisions. Twoness becomes oneness. Like a mother and child.


At once, Fullness is emptiness. Emptiness is fullness. Form is formlessness. Formlessness is form. Wholeness is unique expression. And unique expression is Whole.


The I Ching calls it clinging, fire:

"Fire has no definite form,"

it says,

"but clings to the burning object

and thus is bright.”



March 20, 2021

The replay is divided into three sections:

  • Jen's talk

  • Group discussion

  • Guided meditation/Energy Attunement

March 20, 2021 - Audio

Because the file is so long you may get a warning, it is fine to click play!

deepdive2.m4a

look at love

by Mevlana Jelaluddin Rumi


English version by Nader Khalili

Original Language Persian/Farsi & Turkish


look at love

how it interweaves

with the one fallen in love


look at spirit

how it fuses with earth

giving it new life

why are you so busy

with this or that or good or bad

pay attention to how things blend


why talk about all

the known and the unknown

see how the unknown merges into the known


why think separately

of this life and the next

when one is born from the last


look at your heart and tongue

one feels but deaf and dumb

the other speaks in words and signs


look at water and fire

earth and wind

enemies and friends all at once


the wolf and the lamb

the lion and the deer

far away yet together


look at the unity of this

spring and winter

manifested in the equinox


you too must mingle my friends

since the earth and the sky

are mingled just for you and me


be like sugarcane

sweet yet silent

don't get mixed up with bitter words


my beloved grows right out of my own heart

how much more union can there be


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Definition of Home: A place where something naturally lives or is located.


Naturalness and ease. A sense of deep relaxation. A comfortability with what is. An at-home-ness with the present moment. A kick-off-your-shoes, take a deep breath arrival to a familiar place.

Being called home: Who am I? What am I? What is this all about? What is life? What is death? What is god/ What is my life serving?


Home can never be separate from where we are. It is not far or distant or achieved or earned. It is fundamental and essential and immediate.

An in the world but not of it. Amidst and among all the events. An intimate, compelling and wholehearted locality. That is full with all the coming and going of life. But is unmoved at the core. The uncaused joy and well beingness of home is within and AS all experience.


"I have a lot of opinions. I just don't believe any of them." Jennifer Tyler, spring retreat 2020